School

The lazy summer days have come to a screeching halt and the kids are back to school.  The craziness has returned stronger than before.   I know that I say that every year but this year is different.  I have been babied and up to this year, the kids have always had different schedules and I have managed to not have to get them out the door at the same time.   This year, their buses come within 5 minutes of each other.  I am so not a morning person and the thought of getting the kids ready to go and out the door in 45 min was scary.  Two weeks into it, we have been ready every morning with time to spare.  Let's hope the rest of the year goes this good. 

After school, it is non-stop with homework, soccer, scouts, games, and everything else in life.  It seems like from the time they step off the bus till they go to bed there is never a dull moment.  Those moments remind me of what I love about being a mom.  It is a craziness but I enjoy most every moment of it.  It is the hours between when they get on the bus and when they get off that I seem to be struggling with.  I can't think of a time in my life when I haven't had a defined role or job, till now.  Now that I have finished school, I don't know what to do during the day.  I have longed for the day I was done and could work on all those projects I haven't had time to get to.  That has been good but I still feel like part of me is missing.  I am completely lost.  It isn't really something I expected.  I think in the back of my mind there is a fear of what if this is all?  Can I be happy just being a stay-at-home mom?  I am hoping this is just a phase and I can move on.