My patience is gone

I have lost my patience. It has been slowly leaving for the last couple days. The weather has gone from cool and rainy to hot and muggy in a matter of 24 hours. The last week has been incredibly busy. I wonder how I ever fit school into my schedule. I am freaking out that classes start back up in a week and I haven't even began to scratch the surface of what I wanted to accomplish in those 3 weeks. I still haven't managed to get the house clean yet or finished my service hours project for school so I finish my degree. But I believe what was remaining was lost somewhere between the nagging complaint that I hadn't bought ice cream sandwiches for school yet (for Tuesday) and a simple message from my husband. We had been texting each other for about 30 minutes where I explained my agenda for the day. I didn't return a message since I was at the kids' school playing mom and dad at Parent's Day. The next message said something about ignoring him. No, I wasn't. I was trying the best I could to be everywhere I needed to be today.

I feel guilty that I am unable to give him my undivided attention at some point during the day. I feel like our schedules don't mesh but I can't help but wonder if there is a "perfect" or even good part of my day that I can drop everything and devote it to him. I am blessed that we do get the chance to talk to each other in some form daily but it is still hard to make it all work. I know that I haven't shown his as much attention in the last couple days as I should. I feel pulled in a million directions and completely drained. Maybe, I will find my lost patience in the dentist office during the root canal.