Goals

For me, I think it is a coping mechanism but I have to have goals while he is gone. My way of looking beyond him being gone and keeping me focused on something else. Each deployment, I pick one big "project" that I want to accomplish during that time. It pushes me to finish it before he returns so I can show him. This deployment, my goal is to finish my BS. I started it several years ago as a result of a deployment. During that time, I realized that in order to keep me sane, I had to do something for me. Yes, it took time and money away from my family but at the same time it gave me so much more. It made me a better mom and wife. I learned to let the little things slide and realized what was important in my life. I learned that I was so more capable of things than I ever thought was possible. I learned how to push myself, prioritize things, and persistence. I am glad that I learned to push through things and not let the bumps in Air Force life derail me from my goals and dreams. Yes, I would finish regardless if he was home or not. So I am not sure it makes for a great goal for this deployment. I guess I am still searching for that one big goal then.