Prepared

Prepare for the worst, hope for the best.  I have spent so much of the last eleven years preparing for something whether it was the birth of my children, the next pcs, upcoming school year, or a natural disaster.  Sometimes, I feel like we have been through every one there is.  We have been through tornadoes, earthquakes, volcanoes exploding, typhoons, windstorms, ice storms, and blizzards.  So far, I would say we have been lucky.  The longest we have lost power is about 12 hours.  But nonetheless I still prepare.  Today, I stocked up on some canned food, bought bottled water, and filled up both vehicles.  Tomorrow, I will rearrange the garage to fit all the patio and deck furniture in there.  There is a huge part of me that thinks nothing of the what is looming ahead.  It will probably be way less than I am envisioning.  Still I can't help but wonder, what if it isn't.

I realize this afternoon in the midst of being in a foul mood that I was lonely and nervous about what was to come.  It is one thing to brace for a storm knowing that he is by my side to take care of us.  In so many ways he is my protection.  I always think it is wise to bounce things off another adult.  Two sets of eyes on a problem is always better.  It is another to face it alone.  It won't be the first time but it is still scary.  I feel isolated from reality.  Most of what I have heard has been second hand and I am not sure if it has been twisted or not.  I don't care really about losing power (which will most likely happen) but what if I can't tell him we are ok?  I don't want him to worry and I don't want to lose contact.  Is it better to leave?  Then you battle traffic and finding some place to go.  Not to mention who knows when we will be able to come back and getting back may be more of a fight than it is worth.

I am comforted by the fact currently our neighbors are staying.  I know that we can team up if we need to.  We have survived lots of storms before and this will just be another one.